Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Right Now

-I have two tiny blood blisters on the left side of my middle finger on my right hand.
-I'm pretty hungry.
-I'm contemplating popping said blisters.
-I wish I was playing a piano right now.
-I think theres some chicken parm in the fridge, but then I'd have to get up and wake up my cats who are sleeping right up against my sides.
-I started wearing my glasses again like I'm supposed to.
-This school year is almost over and it was by far the scariest thing for me to face ever.
-I'm fighting again with my old group of friends and I'm expecting to be jumped by said group but, I'm not even worried.
-I want to visit STAC at LEAST once more before school lets out for the you guys.
-this was a pretty big year (musically) for myself. I really cracked down with some guitar techniques, got a lot better at drumming, and learned piano (not my typical half-assed version of learning an instrument, but rather, really took the time to learn and practice)
-I've let some work slip by me and I can't say I'm happy.
-These blisters are killing me.


---> I'm going to eat that chicken parm now.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Things Going On:

1) I haven't talked about art in a long time and it fucking blows. I mean, I've talked about it, but not to people who I think really understand "art" in the way that anyone from STAC does. (both students, alumni, Luke, and anyone who came in to do a workshop)

2) I haven't gone to the city as much as I'd like and the times I did go, I went with people I really didn't want to go with in the first place.

3) I'm just starting to get into whats going on around the world again for the first time in a year and I feel like an infant in that aspect.

4) I want to have the time to go to places spontaneously. I wanna go to old houses, woods, beaches, etc. I just want to go.

5) I need to force myself to start writing again. I don't care if I don't like the outcome, I need to start writing again.

6) I'm the one still holding myself back. Even after everything I've learned in my life and how much I always regret not doing something, I'm still my own enemy.

7) I want Spring and Summer right away so I can start going outside more. I can take staying inside anything anymore. I'm getting some sort of cabin fever even if I'm out driving. I'm in a car, I don't want to be in a car, I want to be on my feet.