Right Now

-I have two tiny blood blisters on the left side of my middle finger on my right hand.
-I'm pretty hungry.
-I'm contemplating popping said blisters.
-I wish I was playing a piano right now.
-I think theres some chicken parm in the fridge, but then I'd have to get up and wake up my cats who are sleeping right up against my sides.
-I started wearing my glasses again like I'm supposed to.
-This school year is almost over and it was by far the scariest thing for me to face ever.
-I'm fighting again with my old group of friends and I'm expecting to be jumped by said group but, I'm not even worried.
-I want to visit STAC at LEAST once more before school lets out for the you guys.
-this was a pretty big year (musically) for myself. I really cracked down with some guitar techniques, got a lot better at drumming, and learned piano (not my typical half-assed version of learning an instrument, but rather, really took the time to learn and practice)
-I've let some work slip by me and I can't say I'm happy.
-These blisters are killing me.


---> I'm going to eat that chicken parm now.

Things Going On:

1) I haven't talked about art in a long time and it fucking blows. I mean, I've talked about it, but not to people who I think really understand "art" in the way that anyone from STAC does. (both students, alumni, Luke, and anyone who came in to do a workshop)

2) I haven't gone to the city as much as I'd like and the times I did go, I went with people I really didn't want to go with in the first place.

3) I'm just starting to get into whats going on around the world again for the first time in a year and I feel like an infant in that aspect.

4) I want to have the time to go to places spontaneously. I wanna go to old houses, woods, beaches, etc. I just want to go.

5) I need to force myself to start writing again. I don't care if I don't like the outcome, I need to start writing again.

6) I'm the one still holding myself back. Even after everything I've learned in my life and how much I always regret not doing something, I'm still my own enemy.

7) I want Spring and Summer right away so I can start going outside more. I can take staying inside anything anymore. I'm getting some sort of cabin fever even if I'm out driving. I'm in a car, I don't want to be in a car, I want to be on my feet.

Songs I've Made

http://dl.dropbox.com/u/13509392/Where%20Have%20You%20Been.mp3 This is my first vocal cover. Ever. I did this for a friend for their birthday. The song is Where Have You Been by Manchester Orchestra.

http://dl.dropbox.com/u/13509392/Earthrise%20%28Mixed%29.mp3 This is a song Mike Mirino and Mike O'Donnel wrote recently and asked me to add percussion. The song is called Earthrise and it can only be described as "WHAT THE FUCK", what started off as a jam led to a song, which led to more jams, with led to...well...it's a structured jam.

http://dl.dropbox.com/u/13509392/19.mp3 as of tonight, I got bored and decided to make little songs using Ilana's poems like I had planned to do for STAC night but never got around to doing. At the time, I just wasn't confident with guitar at all, now I crank out little songs like these all the time. But these are special, these have ridiculous amounts of meaning that I can't even begin to fathom how much injustice I'm doing them. This is "19" written by Ilana Lipowicz.

http://dl.dropbox.com/u/13509392/165.mp3 This is another one of Ilana's poems I made. It's her poem "165" which has always been my personal favorite.

I'm still making this little poem songs, and I'm hoping to crank out maybe 5 more, I'll post them up here afterwards.

what.

I'm up. At almost 2:30am mixing songs for fun. And since I'll have the house to myself tomorrow, I'll be making songs with whatever objects and instruments I want. YES.

GOODNIGHT.

Starting to Record.

I'm beginning to record for the EP I'm putting out, which has yet to be named, and (as I said in the past) I'm doing this solely off of garageband using an audio-interface. All the songs are written with both lyrics and guitar parts and all have titles. So now, it's rough demos for me and figuring out my voice some more. If any interest is taken to my work, let me know and I'll give you a copy when I finish.

The E.P. (Track List)
1) Returning
2) The Vessel
3) The Shame; We Became
4) The Two Way Street (however, there's a good chance that I'll be dropping this song from the list)
5) The Fence, In Autumn

Lyrics for some of the songs can be found on my poetry blog, the whole Trunk Tales Of Woe business.

EP Writing Process (No Process Reference, Please)

Tracks (So Far)
1) The Vessel
2) The Two Way Street
3) The Shame: We Became

The EP, Thus Far.

So, I have a few lyrics and guitar parts that I'm dying to use, but I felt it wasn't enough. Guitar and lyrics? No. Too little. So I've recommissioned my mandolin and I'm starting to write more parts! Of course, my EP is very similar to Bon Iver's "For Emma, Forever Ago" in that (I hate to say it) there is a lot of relationship issues that need some resolving on my part that I'm trying to work out through songs. For inspiration today, I've been listening to the song Creature Fear by Bon Iver. It's message? Go forth, and cry...enjoy.